So… the last post was just a weeeee bit off topic tehe… I filed that project into the summer project folder, which is actually growing quite large already. But back to my experimentations!… The last couple of weeks I have been experimenting a lot with a macro lens that a fellow artist let me borrow for awhile. And thank Buddha he did because wow… that lens was exacttttly what I needed. I’ve been shooting my little heart out. Bubbles, fruits, vegetables, tiles, sculptures, people, fabrics, smoke. Cooking a meal, or really doing anything for that matter, becomes quuuite a long endeavor when my camera is involved…tehehe
chopping cauliflower, laaadidada….o0O0O0 macro of cauliflower *click*…pretttyyy patternsss and texturesss *eyes swirling*… looks like psychedelic clouds…*click click* O0Ooo a cauliflower clouds stop-motion animation *click click click*…. oh right yes.. yes.. back to cooking…guests are here….
Anyway, I’ve also been continuing with my microscope, which has been amazing. While microscopic footage is really entrancing and intriguing, I have found that I also really like the smallest magnification setting it has, which is basically like taking super, super macro footage. I’ve reallllly been moved by the microscopic footage of an orange peel… it looks like some kind of crystalline cave… mmmm..the little worlds and landscapes that exist across many levels of perception.
So as I’ve been openly collecting all this video footage, I came to an overwhelmed point where I feel like it is time to make a decision, which is always quite difficult for me, but that’s what creating is all about. Deciding how you want to perceive the world and what you want to make out of it. And then making continuous choices about how to express that vision fully. I realized I was at a transition between letting the ideas flow and figuring out what to actually do with them. I went into kind of a dark creative cave for awhile, unsure about where exactly I’m going with all this and how to process all the things that go on in this mad bubbly brain of mine. I love experimenting and having nearly endless fascinations, but sometimes it gets exhausting! I love the things I’ve been exploring, but I want them to BECOME something… to integrate and actually find some kind of cohesive release. To actually find fulfilllllment in closure.
As I was feeling really anxious and confused, Sybil reminded me that this is the period where things are really born. That when we experience the unease of the unknown… that is when things change and become something new. A sign that a phase has reached its end and it is moving onto the next level. Evolution! I feel these stages a lot not just on my creative journey, but on my physical and spiritual paths as well. Sometimes we have to experience death in order to be reborn, and I was definitely in a strong phase of death. These metaphorical deaths are inevitable and instead of fighting and resisting them, we just need to learn to acknowledge them and surrender positively to the next phase of growth… Elijah and I decided to do a performance in his ACTlab class about death to help us express this idea, and it was my first real performance for an audience… it was soooo rewarding and a really great release. I will post a video of the performance soon. I was also really happy that I conquered my fears of performing and used my bodyyyy to perform as its own vessel without hiding behind the hoop to express myself. Definitely a new phase in taking risks and performing, and I was on a giddy high from it for days! Thank you ACTlab for an amazing opportunity to share.
finger puppet animations coming soon? i think yes.
So I thought for a short while that this blog was going to be pretty organized around a central focus (ha.. me with a central focus… I have yet fooled myself again)… Instead I’ll just be showing you a random collection of the many things that I do in my spare time! Projections, abstract videos, microscopic footage, hoop performances, cinematography and animations, sculptures, watercolors. Eventually they will evolve and somehow come together for a cohesive project which will be an interesting journey and destination =) I will also be posting things that I’m interested in that I think you should check out…
Such as PONYO! My new favorite movie ever. I cuddled up and giggled like a little baby while watching this. I had good friends and chocolate and my voice recorder to record awesome sounds. The only thing missing was a stuffed animal that I could chew on… which reminds me.. I need to find a stuffed panda soon…
Also, here is a video that I cut together summarizing a few things that I’ve done over the past week. The song is Circles of Motion by Solar Fields (how appropriate). Enjoy! It includes microscopic footage of neurons, projections on mirrors and their reflections, projections on other strange surfaces, and then some of my visuals mixed live (VJ’d) to a LED hoop practice with The Gyronauts!
The videos of projection installations are very excitingly dynamic… I love things that can be very morphous and versatile. They function as their own videos, which can be really interesting when layered and mixed with other videos to music. They are also good to use as projections on other surfaces to create even morrre videos, and in some ways they are just documentations of the physical experience. I really enjoy both the videos and the physical experience in their own ways so I’m just going to keep playing with it on these various levels!
Ohhh, where to start… that is always the hard part, eh?
So I’ll just tell ya some fun stuff. Recently I’ve been experimenting up a storm tehehe. It all kinda started with my dad’s old 35mm slide projector that I’ve been fascinated with since my childhood. The light, the textures, the sound, and even the smell of the old film being blown by the fan yum. I finally got it out of the closet and played with it a couple months ago, and since then it has opened up a world of possibilities and now I am on a path I never could have imagined…
I first projected old slides and photographed/filmed the slides mesmerizingly shifting in and out of focus on a crystalline screen. I then decided to project on various surfaces and textures around my room, totally transforming the physical space as well as creating a very disorienting visual experience– ah the ambiguous blur between reality and illusion *dreamy sigh* I’ve also used it to film smoke, water, and prism abstracts… I love the play that art and science bring together.
Meanwhile, I have been taking my video camera under my wing and using it to capture mesmerizing footage of nature, light, water… natural visualizations I like to call them. I love the hypnosis inherent in nature’s constant subtle motions, which are a reminder that all life moves in cycles of ebb and flow.
From there, Elijah and I started dabbling in digital projections combining my abstract videos with Elijah’s graphics and visual FX. Then Prophet Visuals came to life! Now we perform live visual shows with bands and circus performers, and are working on a full performance project to be completed by May!
So it’s pretty much inevitable that the whole world has become my canvas– now the first thought that comes to mind when I see anything I like is “o0o we should project on that!” So we’ve projected on broken mirror pieces and chandeliers and fabrics and buildings and people and many more things to comeeee! weeeheheh! We also projected graphics onto tree branches, and it looked like microscopic footage of neurons…which reminded me of one of my other fascinations– photomicography!! I love being able to see the world that exists beyond our human senses and perceptions… whether it’s scientific footage or artistic expression. All are different levels and interpretations of reality that bring us closer to understanding our inner and outer worlds =)
I can tell this year will be a great one of just exploring, exploding, and experimenting- riding the waves of the unknown and discovering my passions and talents on which to continually build my artistic expression.